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I just lost my second pregnancy. It started quickly and it ended quickly.
It's supposed to be easier than this but if I've ever learned one thing, it's that nothing, NOTHING, in my life has been easy or worked out the way it should. Two days ago, I said to myself "If you don't have hope, what do you have?"
I'll tell you.
If you don't have hope you have a whole inside of you so big that nothing fills it. If you don't have hope, you have nothing. And nothing hurts…Continue
I don’t even know where to begin.
The last month of my life has been so shocking and surreal. I feel as though I’ve been in a dream… More like a nightmare but… Still.
As you guys know, I had surgery for an endometrioma on April 3rd. It went really well and my recovery was going really well. I started to finally feel better, even well enough to go to a three day class that I had been so looking forward to. I got my period on that Sunday and I was so excited because it meant I…Continue
I saw my doctor today and the follow up after my surgery went well but now I have a big decision to make.
I didn't think I had a big decision to make, but you know me. I love creating strife where there is none. I thought we had agreed that I would be starting clomid immediately after getting my period.. which could be any day now. But now I'm feeling conflicted. My SO is so lax about the whole thing that I feel as though I'm making huge life altering decisions all on my own.…Continue
I can’t breathe because I’m waiting for you.
Every second of my day is spent in this whirlwind, in this black hole, this obsession fueled string of moments that just.. keep… stringing…. along.
We are not in this together. We are not on the same team. I am.. I am in this. That’s it.
I am hurting. And because I’m hurting I turn my back on this. On this place that’s supposed to be mind, that IS mine, that I created for me and…Continue