The Bullet List of 08/2012

Seriously, I don't have it in me.



But if you read through the beginning, you'll be rewarded with a slightly amusing story about little bit! 

 

Had a great few days with both of the kiddos. Saying goodbye to Erik today was so, so difficult. I'm doing ok right now, I think. After the last few weeks of dreading that moment, I'm finally able to relax a little bit. I cried some, but mostly I've been calm. Is it true calm? Hmmm... can't tell yet. I guess we'll…

At least, I'm trying to look at it that way.



We're moving to Nika's mom's house for a while. We've had a rough time with her back issues and my lack of employment and, frankly speaking, it's smart to do it.



She's lived away from her mom's since she was a teen, and I've been away from my mom's since I was a teen (minus 6 weeks in my early twenties which was hell). This is not easy on either of us. I know that.



I'm having a hell of a time handling it though.…

My oldest son is going to be 15! Fifteen. Craziness.



I was a scared 19 year old kid when I brought him home from the hospital. I had no idea what I was doing at all.



When I walked into the house and got settled in with him, he was sleeping and I remember looking at him and thinking, "What now?". Was I supposed to do anything but sit there and stare at the infant who'd somehow materialized in front of me? LOL



Anywho, I digress. I posted a sweet note on his…

When I was a teenager, I used to hike constantly. Most of the time, I would take the 45 minute trek to Shaw Nature Reserve. It was my haven, my safe place away from home. I would hike for hours at a time, logging my longest hike as 10 miles in one day.



It is still around, and still has everything a hiker could…

There was once a teenage mother... me. I was 19 when I had my oldest son. He's almost 15 now. When his father and I split up, my son went to live with him, and so it's been for years.

He's the most amazing kid. He stands up for himself. He loves gaming, theater, and football, and he does all three in school. He's in the middle of all the social groups like I was in high school. He doesn't take any crap.

He stands up for me. I'm in a committed relationship with a woman, and have…