REGULAR women are annoying. PREGNANT women are the pits. Every time I go to the pregnancy board, one of those women annoys the C R A P out of me. All they do is whine over their symptoms or lack thereof, this problem, that problem blah blah blah. I'm not the same girl I was a year ago. Back then it would have been okay. Now I'm just like SHUT UP! I'm all about being positive. There's a serious lack of that on the boards and it's enough to drive me nuts.
I am currently sitting at my desk yawning, knowing I have been eating way too much, and craving for some pizza. I'd pay good money to be able to take a diet pill while pregnant. I think that would be the closest thing to heaven on earth for me. I don't even know what to get for lunch because everything I want has chicken and I don't eat chicken anymore. Only pasta. And
pizza. And a whole lot of junk.
And now it is lunch. I'm doing okay so far. I got a veggie burger with lettuce and mozzarella from subway and some cheddar sun chips. Yummy!!! Now moving on.
Grayson is doing wonderful. Monday was borderline suicidal for me. For one, it was a Monday and I was the only person in the office since Angela is out of town. Then I go to pick up Grayson and his teacher shows me this scribble scrabble that is supposed to be his name. He's in private school and I'm one of those parents that wants to have a high achieving child! I was totally disappointed. I took away his nintendo DS and made him write his name three times for me. Then I made a deal with him. I told him if he goes to school and write his name the way he is supposed to for the rest of the week that he could have a spiderman game for his Nintentdo DS. Needless to say, come Tuesday he did fantastic writing his name! BUT roll back to monday. Odie, Grayson and I go to Wal Mart to get some soccer cleats for Grayson and I go look at my bank account and see that my savings is GONE! It said someone had went into the bank and withdrawn ALL my money. I was livid and emotional. Then there was a mysterious $100 in my checking account. I checked it again after midnight and all my money showed up in my checking account but my savings account was gone. Turns out, some bimbo at the bank CLOSED my savings account because there's some STUPID federal law that saw you can't transfer money out of your savings more than 6 times a month. TOTAL BULL SHIT. It's MY money!!! Either way, I got my money back so I really don't care.
I am increasingly lonely. Sure I have a very busy four year-old and a fantastic husband, but I don't really have any female friends. I'm to the point where I consider 99.9% of people my acquaintances. My bestest friend in the whole wide world is my sister Erryn. She has three kids and I can call her day or night and she's right there no matter what. Torah and I have been friends for a long time, but it feels as though our friendship isn't the same. It really bothered me when she went and told her sister I'm pregnant. Sure I'm ecstatic about it, but it's also MY news, MY joy, MY moment. I want to be the one to tell people. And when I told her we were keeping it private for a while, she asked "Why???" BECAUSE WE WANT TO!!!!! Can we not have a private moment!!! I don't like my space OR my privacy invaded at all. I guess things just don't seem as genuine anymore.
I shall return later. Back to work I go!